Disbelief

Andy, how am I supposed to live my life now, without you in it?

My darling baby brother...how can this be true?

I held you as a baby. Now I must watch them put you in your grave at 28 years old. So much living yet to do with your life. I wish that I could get that baby back, to hold him in my arms once again and never let him go.

Dear God, I will give anything, ANYTHING, for You to make this not be true. Take MY life, if You must.

But please, please, God...make this not be true.










I'm gonna live my life
like every day's the last
without a simple goodbye
it all goes by so fast

and now that you're gone
I can't cry heard enough
I can't cry hard enough
for you to hear me now

gonna open my eyes
and see for the first time
I've let go of you like
a child letting go of his kite

There it goes up in the sky
there it goes beyond the clouds
for no reason why
I can't cry hard enough
No, I can't cry hard enough
for you to hear me now

gonna look back in vain
and see you standing there
when all that remains
is just an empty chair

and now that you're gone
I can't cry hard enough
I can't cry hard enough
for you to hear me now

There it goes, up in the sky
there it goes beyond the clouds
for no reason why
I can't cry hard enough
no I can't cry hard enough
for you to hear me now





Copyright 2007, Laura Linger